ive learned by my second day here that everybody is friendly, happy to lend a hand, and more then happy to do their jobs and serve you your meal.
earlier in the day we went to Five Guys. i made my order super complicating because i work at a five guys and i know the specifics of a perfect burger.
they noted how detailed it was.
i noted that im a manager.
the service was great. the energy was incredible. it made me miss home. miss my boys. miss my store.
we met two girls at the restaurant we went to that was selling the pitchers of margaritas. they were fun. interesting. welcoming. everything that east haven ct isnt.
every minute i spend here is another minute i want to move here.
i have a few interests at home, but I'm beginning to think that there is nothing left for me there. i want to restart my life.
may 24- gay strip.
my first time at a gay bar.
we went to 3...4? i don't know, the end of the night seemed to be meshed in.
I've learned some things while observing Eric in this community.
rules of straight man (who is comfortable with his sexuality) in a gay bar.
-don't flirt with anyone:
75% chance its a man
10% chance its a straight girl there with her gay best friend and is not there to meet guys.
15% its a lesbian.
-don't talk in your fun adorable joking around back girl voice:
it can easily be misunderstood as a white gay boys voice
-probably shouldn't wear a v-neck tee-shirt
-when the boy and girl are making out next you, try not to stare at them and wonder why the man is rubbing a bulge under the girls skirt.
-don't ask "is this ok to do at a gay bar?" so loud. the last thing you want is a pack of wild lesbians stabbing you or a gaggle of gay men slapping you silly.
-and last but not least, try your hardest to not sing and dance to every Madonna song that comes on the radio.
: i understand that you have a very wide spread appreciation for music, but that's pretty much a mating call in these parts.
i also learned that gay bars are better then any straight bar Ive ever been to. 3 simple reasons.
-dancing with sparklers
-$5 forty's
-beer pong.
-other then keeping an eye on Eric's brown eye all night, i had a wonderful time.
i never been around so many of my family. it was so natural and comfortable.
my tits were complemented by gay men the entire night. i was called beautiful, strong, and hilarious.
i went outside alone to smoke a cigarette and didnt want to stand alone. it was nice to not even think twice to walk up to the nearest group and ask if i can join. i was welcomed into the circle with hugs and kisses.
im going to start going to more gay clubs and gay nights when i get home to ct. i always though id hate it. i thought itd be too much for me, but it turns out i never felt so amazing. the comfort. the atmosphere. <3
-earlier in the day we went to the bay.
lake Michigan is so big. it was like being home and watching the ocean waves. for the first time in my life i felt completely clear minded. NOBODY and NOTHING was on my mind. i heard the waves and the people passing by.
ive felt like this whole trip has been like a movie. i felt young and wild.
im leaving in 4 days and i already want to be back.
may 25- lay low night. friday i was going to go to one of the clubs to see one of my favorite bands play but i felt shitty. im a little upset because the experience would be amazing. i couldnt get my head clear. we went to this awesome Hawaiian burger place and bought some beer. played cards and watched comedy stand up the rest of the night.
since i landed here someone has been on my mind.
the fear of the feelings i have.
the confusion.
i want to stay here forever to avoid all this.
but at the same time, i want to get home as soon as possible so i can see this person.
but all this will be in a totally different blog i think.
may 26- today we are going to the navy pier for a boat tour. the days just begun so i dont have much to talk about.
